I had the best weekend I have had in a long time. Friday I got to have Lucy the lab come and stay with me. She is great, she loves to be loved and it was nice to have that undivided attention of something who wanted to be with you no matter what you were doing. I love that dog. It also reinforced how good it would be for me to get my own dog. Why wait for the fence to be finished what is the use in that really?. So I have started looking at dogs on the Humane Society web page. I also got a lot of painting and cleaning done Friday. Saturday I had company over for the first time. I made dinner for someone other than myself for the first time in oh maybe three months, and best of all the company was great. It was a very nice night. Sunday was more of the same good company followed by planting Hyacinth bulbs in the garden and then playing a couple of softball games. I am really starting to feel comfortable being on my own. I think the key really is having some balance between my desire to have friends and other people in my life and my developing sense of self on my own. Something that you can easily lose through the course of a marriage and parenthood.
It is a good place to be in. I am feeling stronger now than I have in a really long time. Back when you are young and feel invincible and that you will live forever or at least a long time without having to think about what happens when you get old. I am not feeling that way at all but I am finally accepting things the way they are. I can’t wait for december to come. I need to book my flights with the kids soon. I think I am really going to like having a dog. In part I like the whole aspect of learning how to interact with a dog. I like it.
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